Sharing A Devotional By Brenda Walsh

DAILY DEVOTION

When God Calls 

God has a special plan for your life, and you never have to be afraid to say, “Yes, Lord, I’ll do it!” That’s because God will never ask you to do something and then leave you hanging! He will give you everything you need to accomplish the task, and He will guide you each step of the way. There are times you may question God because you feel inadequate, unqualified, uneducated, or unworthy. But don’t forget that with God, all things are possible, and He knows what He is doing. If God only called the capable—it would be too easy to steal the glory! People might even be tempted to think it was their own doing instead of giving God the praise. God knows you inside and out—so much more than you even know yourself! He gives you the talents you need to shine for Him, and as you use those talents for His glory, He trusts you with even more talents. Never fear where God is leading because Jesus never fails and He never makes a mistake. You can know when it is God calling by communing with Him in prayer and asking for an outpouring of His Holy Spirit. Be assured that He will never ask you to do something that is immoral, sinful, or goes against His Holy Word. So, when God calls, say sincerely, “Yes, Lord, send me!” Texts: John 15:5, II Peter 1:3, Hebrews 13:21, II Corinthians 9:8

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Getting to Know Me

Here I am bloggingonce again.  I have decided to write with what I remember, know, understand, want to share with others.  I do not want to prove anything.  I want others to know who I am through my words.  I am a 48-year-old woman who is dealing with kidney disease once again after 31 years and now doing hemodialysis three times a week at 3 ½ hours every Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday.  I go to appointments whenever necessary, get my nails done as well go pick up groceries at Wal-Mart with my IRIS hired worker once a month, and dine in and out whenever monies allow.  I rarely leave my apartment otherwise.  I am more private than I used to be, but I do have stories of my past I am willing to share from time to time.  In fact, since I have a lot of time on my hands to twiddle my thumbs, why not begin writing a book?  I am one of those people that begins something sometimes does not finish what she starts.  I do not want to be that person anymore.  I am a Christian woman who struggles with depression, anxiety, and panic disorder. I see a counselor when I can and the last time I saw her was in May 29, 2019, and the last time before that it was in October somewhere.  My health has taken a little beating since then, and I have added hemodialysis to my weekly regimen as of April 24, 2019 in the hospital for a few days and then outpatient May 7, 2019.  Life moves on.

            Why am I telling you all this?  A blog is a blog, right?  I am telling you that I am, yet another human being who loves to write, who I am through words.  I want to tell you stories and express my opinion from time to time.  My life as a human being is a story in itself from time to time, too. I love to read, write, watch television, converse with my IRIS hired workers and IRIS consultant about things that matter to me and others whenever I can.  Why not write in a blog from time to time as well.  I know that I say “time to time” too often.  Anyway, I am going to begin doing what I love when I am busy and that starts today.  No more sluffing off.  If I have a bad day, I have a bad day.  If I have a good day, I have a good day.  Blogging is one of the aspects my life is now going to have – opinions and all.

Weather is Jumbled Up

            For the last day of May, June begins tomorrow.  Am I ready for summer?  Yes, I am, but it does not feel like summer to me.  It feels much cooler and the weather has been rainy and wet.  Did the weather get mixed up a little bit after January 22, 2019 rolled around five months ago?  I think it did.  I have been dealing with some depression or some kind of low because the weather has not been very cooperative lately.  I even remember leaving the hospital on January 22, 2019 in a snowstorm.  The snowstorm was the first big one we had since winter became official on the calendar.  It is almost like the weather went from summer to winter because the weather has been fall-like up until the day I left the hospital.  I do not forget that easily – yet. I am 48 years old.  I feel the weather has been having some issues lately.  Or is it the fact I live in Wisconsin and the state has its issues?  Maybe that’s it?  Global warming comes to mind.

Thought For the Day 5-29-19

Come into actual, personal contact with Christ, that you may exert an influence that is uplifting and reviving. - Pr 156

Living My Life

            I have been out of the hospital and on outpatient dialysis now since May 7, 2019.  I feel that I still have freedom and I still living on my own in my own apartment.  I am indeed living my life the best I can.  It has been a while since I have seen my counselor SW and this coming Wednesday, May 29, will be the first time since this winter days began.  I am looking forward to seeing SW after a long time – a few months.  I have been doing okay and I will be okay, but I have been struggling enough to notice that some things have changed for me emotionally.  I do not trust strangers anymore and we meet strangers every day. In fact, when I first began outpatient dialysis, I met some strangers at the dialysis center, and now I consider them all family  members in my professional realm of life whether or not the workers are traveling every few weeks.  The dialysis center has seen two travelers depart since I began dialysis.  I have been dealing with life the best I can.

            One of the toughest things I have been dealing with is weather.  I am not sure if the weather here in Wisconsin has fallen behind this year or what, but it has been rainy, stormy, and the sky has been showing a lot of grayness. It is sad.  I get out as much as I can for a little before dialysis and while I have appointments.  Not always can DKF get me out for a drive every time I leave my apartment for dialysis, but I get out for a little while before being hooked up to a machine for 3 ½ hours.  The weather has been a little unbearable lately.  I am still living my life as normal as possible. 

Today'a Plan II / May 19

Hello and good afternoon from Janesville, Wisconsin.  The rest of my day and plans was that my AR parents visited for a while then headed up north to Gays Mills to see other family before heading back home for the rest of the summer.  They travel so much to see family that they have vowed that they will be spending the summer in AR/at home this year/this summer.  I find that understandable because home is a very important part of life.  In the past few years, I do not remember them being home much.

Today's Plan I / May 19

I have not come up with what I want to write about in my blog just yet, but what was in coming will come to me soon.  I have been busy getting ready for my parents visit this weekend. They were planning on being here yesterday after dialysis, but their little dog S (Female)  could not travel because she was not feeling very good.  The idea of them being here around 10 AM this morning pleases me.  I am glad their dog is feeling better.  Here I am waiting patiently while I should make sure I have brushed my hair for company, lol.  After they leave, who cares?  I do, but it is Sunday.